Tag: sadness

Loving and Losing

Hot tears streaked down my cheeks. The rivulets of water soaked my beards till they can’t hold anymore. I took a mirror and looked at my face for a very long time. All I saw was sorrow, emptiness, and a boy just trying to exist.

And for a very long time I’ve been managing. But I don’t think I can continue like this. I don’t want this to continue. I wish it would all end.

Yes, I was deeply in love. Yes, she was the best thing that happened to me in a long time.

Yes, she wants me to let go. Yes, I want her to be happy. So, the fact that I want it to end, I’ll never tell her.

Yes. Life goes on. But can I keep up?

Tags depression, Disturbance, Horror, letter, love, pain, sadness, women

ranting

Empty

If I’m asked to describe how I’m feeling. If I’m asked to paint a picture of my emotions. If I’m asked to open my mind. And If I agree to do all these, and I open up.
You’d be amazed at the loads of emotions I feel. Or you’d be appalled by the lack of coherency in my feelings.

Empty.

That’s a word that holds a lot of meanings. I’ve loved so much that I don’t have any sense of loving in me again. I gave it all to her.

And in giving all I have, in totally submitting to the exhilarating love I have for her. I have lost it all. My heart, body, soul, mind, and emotions belong to her. But she has devoted herself to another.

Empty.

I’m just a human boy living life as it comes. Like an empty shell moving around and around on the sea. Like a coconut on the ocean, I exist. But my destination is unknown. My life is without direction. I just woke up to sleep again later. I sleep to wake up later.

Empty.

I lost myself trying to find myself. I found her when I was lost. Now, she’s gone. And I know for a fact. This pain will certainly last for a very long time. This feeling of emptiness will shroud me till eternity at the very least.

Tags belief, depression, Horror, Life, pain, sadness

Poems

Tired Lover

Eyes heavy,
Limbs weary,
Like a car with the weight of a lorry,
So tired it’s scary.

I had a love,
I lost her.
Tiring!

I had a life,
That doesn’t revolve around women,
I lost it.

Eyes teary,
Heart shattered,
I’m tired.

To love, is to lose.
If I had to choose again,
I’d still choose her.

Tags belief, death, depression, Disturbance, Horror, love, sadness, women

Poems

No longer the man

Marauded my way into the fyke
Of preternatural romance .
Adorned with thorns and spike
Discomfited, never in balance.
Full of laughs and frowns alike
But heart unbroken , never a lance
Could pierce the core. I’m Ike .

Tags belief, depression, rebirth, sadness