Tag: depression

Poems

A different type of pain

When I need you,
And you’re not here.
When I call your cell,
But you’re not there.
When I call your name,
And all I hear is silence;
It’s a different type of pain!

When I fall,
And I’m all alone,
When I fail,
But I can’t count on your support.
When I’m hurt,
But you don’t have my back;
It’s a different type of pain.

I cried in the rain,
I screamed in the shower,
Sadness, anger and frustration permeate my soul,
And you are no where to be found;
It’s a different type of pain.

Tags belief, dailyprompt, death, depression, lie, Poem

ranting

Life is unfair

There is a phrase that we always throw around when we’re having conversations. It is a common enough saying that it has almost become a proverb in its own right. The phrase? Life is unfair. Yes! Now you see that I’m right about people always throwing it around.

This piece is not about the origin, usage, or accuracy of the phrase. I am writing this to address the “unfairness” of life. Life is never meant to be fair. Life also known as nature, is the epitome of unfairness. The weak are at the mercy of the strong. The good are bullied by the bad. In nature, only the strongest or the most cunny will survive to see the light of the next day.

The design of life is meant to be unfair. Check your fingers and you will agree with me. Even our fingers are not equal. Sharing the same womb does not guarantee the same amount of intelligence or success later in life. The moment you are born weak or with a defect, you are automatically at a disadvantage in the race of life. As a human, being born into a poor family shows you the unfairness of life even before you grow up.

Nature is never meant to be fair. The moment you look around and life is perfect, pinch yourself and wake up from the daydream. Life is unfair. Life is unbalanced. The earliest you accept that the nature of life is unbalanced, the happier you become.

Life is unfair. So, focus on getting as much peace and happiness as you can derive.

Tags belief, depression, gratitude, Life, love, non-fiction, pain

Poems

King of Ghosts

The need for validation and companionship,
Is part of the genetic makeup of humans,
Six billion people looking for someone to anchor them,
Someone to make feel alive in this world of ghosts!

What happens when everyone is attached?
What happens when the one you love is taken?
Not by the cold hands of death,
But by another who doesn’t want to be a ghost!

Every other ghost is loved,
Save one.
This ghost tried to dwell among humans again,
But it’s a losing battle.

Day by day, this ghost stop looking for companionship among humans.
This ghost seeks the warmth of others,
Alas! No one wanted him.

Alone forever, he is doomed.
Dwelling among humans, but a ghost he is.
Hatred for life blossoming in him.
I am him.
I am the King of Ghosts.

Tags belief, death, depression, Disturbance, sadness

Poems

The Voices #3

Nightmares in daytime,
And sleepless nights.
Waring emotions,
And destructive notions!
So I decided to talk it out.
The Voices in my head made for good companion.

They call it madness,
I call it evolution!
Homo sapiens phoenix

Tags belief, depression, Disturbance, fiction, Horror

Poems

Falling and Failing

Hot tears streaked down my cheeks. The rivulets of water soaked my beard till they can’t hold anymore. I took a mirror and looked at my face for a very long time. All I saw was sorrow, emptiness, and a boy just trying to exist.

And for a very long time I’ve been managing. But I don’t think I can continue like this. I don’t want this to continue. I wish it would all end.

Yes, I was deeply in love. Yes, she was the best thing that happened to me in a long time.

Yes, she wants me to let go. Yes, I want her to be happy. So, the fact that I want it to end, I’ll never tell her.

Yes. Life goes on. But can I keep up?

Tags belief, depression, Disturbance, Horror, Life, love, women

Poems

Half empty

Halfway through the night,
Or so I thought!
There’s a glimmer of light on the horizon,
Or so my eyes tell me.
I dropped a cup on the table,
I perceive it as half-full.

But in reality,
I am nowhere near.
The more I strive,
The further breakthrough seems.
The more I fight,
The bloodier the battle becomes.

The sky is bleak,
And my mood is meek.
I just want it to end.
But when would it?

Tags belief, depression, Life, pain, Poem

Poems

There was a time

There was a time,
When savings trumped expenditure;
When dinner was ready before lunch is taken;
When money had meaning;
And honour was recognised!

There was a time,
When love meant love;
When promises weighed more than the words;
When forever was a very long time.
And hardwork was rewarded!

There was a time,
When government governed;
When roads were motorable;
When civil servants were civil;
And human abuse was reduced!

There was a time,
When life had value;
When offices were earned not bought;
When youths were youths.
There was indeed a time.

Tags belief, depression, Disturbance, Life, non-fiction, pain

Poems

Root of all evil

The root of all evil,
And the evil that spreads the most root.
The cause of all evil,
And the evil with the worst curse,
Is love.

For love,
Murder has been committed.
And for love,
Sincere commitment have being murdered.

The snares of love,
The dangers of love,
And the pain of love,
Are unavoidable!
Inescapable!

Love brings out the worst in humans,
But for you,
I’ll always be in love.
Even though I know the dangers!

Tags appreciation, belief, depression, Disturbance, Horror, Poem, women

Poems

A Different Type of Pain

All my life,
I’ve always wanted to be with you.
But recently,
Doing that is torture.
I want to hold you passionately,
But you don’t want me to.
I want to stare into your eyes,
And hear how much you love me,
But you don’t anymore.

Loving you is so divine,
But I feel like you’re on a decline,
When it comes to loving me.
Loving you is my most important gain,
But this is a different type of pain,
When I don’t know how much you love me.
Loving you brings me solace,
But I can’t afford to look into your face,
Because I don’t want you to reject me.

I sincerely do love you.
But this is a different type of pain.

Tags appreciation, belief, depression, love, Poem

Poems

A Tale of Two Emotions

I am human,
And so are you.
I hate the fact that I love you,
I love you more than life itself!
I love you more than the word “love”.
I hate that I love you so much.

I am weird,
You’re unique.
I hate the fact that you love me so much.
You love me more than love itself!
You love me more than the word “love”
I love to hate you.
And I hate loving you.

You’re a sun,
And I will happily revolve around you.
Do I not have a brain to think?
Well, I don’t need a brain.
I just love hating you!

Tags belief, depression, hate, Life, love, women