Help!!!

A lot of words gushed out of my mouth;
But not a word about my inner feelings
I am a brave weak man,
I’m scared of rejection upon rejection
But still, I don’t want to be alone.

I have one,
But it’s like Caligula and Cleopatra
An aberration;
Different season and different seasoning!
But being alone, is the least of my problems.

“Voice out” the order came,
But my voice is drowned in promises
Empty promises.
I met a girl,
She wasn’t right for me.
I started a quest,
Twice now, the pandemic failed me.

It’s dark in here,
Give me light.

©Ridwan Akinkunmi Ajagbe